Change... scary word man. Scary and exciting at the same time. Life is full of it. It brings hope and fear at the same time. When is the last time you sat down and felt like you needed to the balls to change your life? When was the last time you were paralyzed in fear when it was forced on you? I used to thrive on it. Panic that strikes people during emergencies... I thrived in it. Over time I lost that. All of my hopes and efforts were put into something that collapsed for things universally out of my control. In all honesty I have been fighting back waves of depression in order to deal with it ever since. You combine that with the loss of both parents, the house my children were supposed to be raised in, my career, my health... it was a big thing to over come and I am only now realizing I was not fine. I was not as ok as I thought I was. Crashing is not much fun. It really isn't.

Today's offering is soley a post of my thoughts. I am tooling up for a wedding gift, and once that is all displayable I will belt that out to this page as well.